Tan Jian Hui.

1:14 PM

Yesterday my brother was using the comp so I can't use.
Deardear called me so late I so sad...

Yesterday went out to eat for brunch then went back home to do some stuffs and was chatting on msn with a chc church friend about forex trading and he introduced me his trainer..

So I went ahead to Hougang Point and meet him and chatted about the details.If you interested, tell you when im back bah..

Then went for dinner with mum and bro @ a Japanese 'food court' @ northpoint. It's rlly yummy !! Next time must bring you go.!!

Then walk around and home le lor..

With tons of love,
MUACKS

Jian Hui ended his words.

10:57 PM

Day 6 Day 6 Day 6!

I'm feeling really burdened right now and I got no mood at all to blog.
But you got every right to share the burden whether you want it or not..hehe

So..apparently, i woke up @ around 1pm.
Was on the phone with you awhile and it was awesome!
After that went to collect kite.

Went to club room to clear some stuffs and began to do my Campus Concert Manual.

Reached home comp crashed, loads of things starts to happen spoilt my whole night. Come back then I'll talk to you about it bah. Go join you le. Nights Deardear. I love you.

Jian Hui ended his words.

10:38 PM

This is the fifth day i'm living my life without deardear physically but she's still in my heart ;)

Today is quite a busy day...
Let's go!

Meeting in J441 @ 1030. Was briefing everybody what's in it for everybody in the committee and stuffs and I am about to send email to everybody regarding what I've shared.

After that, they began making the coconut tree and that was when I saw my calendar and I realized THERE'S ACTUALLY A CLUBCRAWL MASS BRIEFING @ 3-5PM!!

Thus, I ended the meeting proper @ 130pm and off we went for lunch at North Canteen. I had Yong Tau Fu and wanted to give you one of my seaweed chicken but you weren't here so I ate it up for you! HEHEHE

After lunch, went back up to PAL room to spend 45 minutes explain what they need to do for any campus concert. Then 15minutes to brief Joanne, JinXuan, HuiCheng what they have to do.

They have to arrange the whole club room, give me a list of what is there in Pal Room, sort out the t-shirts and etc.

Went for the briefing with Terence, got our booth number and I am so ready to rock and roll!!

Went back to Pal Room to give the 3 ladies a hand and off I went to mummy serene's house for cell group meeting. Mum serene cooked Bak Kut Teh and it was yummylicious I must tell you!! You got to try her cooking probably next Wednesday!!!!

So today's topic was 'WAIT'.
Let me share the power of WAIT.

God does not always want you to keep working, keep striving, keep moving on."
If you keep doing so, He won't have a chance to do a work in your life.
So He will just wait for you to stop and say 'I have enough~ I'm tired and I'll wait' and then, He will come in and do a miracle in your life!

Alright dear dear, I'll end off from here with this verse, 1John4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment.

I love you.

Jian Hui ended his words.

12:14 AM

Day 4 without Dear dear.
It is terribly terrible.

Woke up early in the morning and checked my result.
Was utterly disappointed.
It was bad, real bad.

I need you dear dear.
The need of you is really getting stronger than want.
Guess your trip to Penang made me discover my need for you is ultra.
Dear dear come back earlier alright?..

After that went to Marsling, a ULU PANDAN place to collect the stuffs I collected for our 11th month.
The address did not tell me the unit of the place or what so I was under the block and thus I called.
The person did not call me back after so long thus I went home feeling even more disappointed.

Reach home, my mum cooked Dong Fen Crab and it was super yummy.
I guess thats the only thing good for my day beside your reply of my sms and you are about to call me later.

After that, helped my dad with the re fixing of the rack.
Got so fed up with him.
Sucks sucks sucks.
And all these mark my day.

Today totally suck and I love you dear.

With all my love.
Muacks

Jian Hui ended his words.

10:46 PM

This is the third day of my living hell.
I feel as if I've died cause it's like I'm in hell know!
I really miss you~~
Alright a quick summary for you what I've done today!

Reached Isetan @ 8am and they were still setting up for us to do stock take so went to had my breakfast @ Macdonald.
Did stock take and did some return of stocks to warehouse.
After that, went to Cathay to pass a broken club to the club fitter and off to the MRT.
Was at a crossroad of whether should I see doctor first or see your dog first.
After a little consideration, i've decided to put my Dear dear first and went over to your house.

Chloe was so excited she peed two times running here and there so I got your maid to clean up.
THIS IS MY CONFESSION.

I'm sorry dear dear. I broke her water bottle (Jian Hui the destroyer) thus I went to the pet lover's center to get another one.
But I couldn't get the same thus I got a red.
Once I've found the same, I'll get it for you.
So sorry dear dear.

After that went to Yishun for acupuncture and take my medicine.
Then off I went to the beads shop thinking they might teach crochet but sadly, they don't but I got the brief idea how I'll design your necklace already!!

That's about all for today.
My laptop been giving me a lot of hibernation problems lately it's getting me so ANGRY!!
I love you deardear with all my heart.
Muacks!!
Byeee

Jian Hui ended his words.

9:27 PM

This is the 2nd day without deardear at all.
She's still @ Penang.
Bet she's having a great time eating.
I miss her tons and i bet she too.

Went to the hospital to visit my aunt again and rushed off to CMC again.
Third week and they repeated this thing, 'To love is a decision'.
Somehow, I was convicted.
I want to make a decision to love you exceptionally MORE!

Like what Justin Bieber said,
I'm gonna put you first, I'll show you what you're worth.

Deardear, deep down, I really want you to be the happiest girl in the whole wide world although I ain't good at it.

I love you.

Jian Hui ended his words.

1:36 AM

Today is Day 1 that my deardear goes to Penang.
I am so so sad..

The thought that shes so many hundreds of kilometres from me makes me miss deardear even more.
I really hope I can see her, even in webcam, it would be great.
I miss her voice but I can't talk with her overnight on the phone as phone bill will cost a fat joe.

Today was busy fixing mum's metal rack in the storeroom thus wasn't able to send deardear off.
Felt really really super bad and I really miss her..
Sorry deardear that i wasn't able to make it today.
Really miss hugging you and I've decided to go to your place on Monday to look after your pets, in case they get bored and lonely.

Hope you are right beside me watching me type this post for you.
I love you deardear with all my hearts.

With my greatest love for my beloved.
Jianhui signs off now!

Jian Hui ended his words.

11:58 PM

On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
One Pathetic Glass Bottle

On the second day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
Two single ticket for mrt
One Pathetic Glass Bottle

On the thid day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic Glass Bottle

On the fourth day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic Glass Bottle

On the fifth day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the sixth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the seventh day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the eighth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Eight stupid magazines
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the ninth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Nine chicken nut bread?
Eight stupid magazines
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the tenth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Ten finger nails cutted
Nine chicken nut bread?
Eight stupid magazines
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the eleventh day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Eleven tickles
Ten finger nails cutted
Nine chicken nut bread?
Eight stupid magazines
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

On the twleveth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
Twleve cookies in the pathetic glass bottle
Eleven tickles
Ten finger nails cutted
Nine chicken nut bread?
Eight stupid magazines
Seven loveloves
Six missed calls
Five tight slaps
Four long scoldings
Three wet kisses
Two single ticket for MRT
One Pathetic glass bottle

Jian Hui ended his words.

10:25 AM

Quite a number of stuffs happened so a very quick update before I rush to work!
I'm seriously running late~!!!

Firstly, Genting trip!
28-30September.
What a way to spend 5thMonth with my deardear.
It was really great.
Tune into lolita-ikaimi.blogspot.com or facebook for more photos!!

Deardear's birthday!
Caught a movie and had a nice lunch and great drink too!!
Tune into lolita-ikaimi.blogspot.com for photos!

Lastly!
I got too bored and came out with a video.
A Better Fatty.
Enjoy!

Jian Hui ended his words.

2:37 AM

A long post..
Topic: How much I love my deardear and what do I miss about her when she's not around.
Setter: My deardear

Introduction: So, out of the blue blue sky, my deardear ask me to write about this topic.
And it got to be a long post so here's a 15minutes essay for my deardear, just for her.

How much I love my deardear?
Can love be measured?
If one day, there's really a currency/measure for love, I guess my love for her will be written in 'much' and not 'many'.
It's like asking how much rice are there in a 10kg rice bag and how many rice are there on the spoon.
My love for her is as much as 10million kg of rice bag and it's still increasing.
It will definitely not be as many as what you can find on a spoon.
Nobody, even Albert Einstein, even Da Vinci, are able to come out with a formula to count my love for her because nobody will know even my deardear.
Only I'll know.
But exactly how much?
I don't even know.
All I know is it's a lot a lot to the extent I can feel that the love for her fills every part of my body, spirit and soul.
I feel that my finger tip has the love for her.
I feel that my nose has the love for her.
I feel that my ribcage has the love for her.
I feel that my happiness has the love for her.
I feel that my anger has the love for her.
I feel that my sadness has the love for her.
Every single part of me has the love for her.
I guess what can be equivalent to my love for her is the volume of me as not in my great mass of 67kg but how much and what's in me because everything of me, in me, about me consists the love for her.

Next question which is the last.
What do I miss about my deardear when she's not around.
Okay, firstly, there's two kind of not around generally in our relationship.
Firstly, in webcam only.
Secondly, literally not seeing each other.
But it ain't going to affect what do I miss aobut her though.

Firstly, I'll miss her voice.
Sometimes she don't talk to me even when the webcam is on because she might be angry with me or she might be busy doing some stuffs.

Secondly, I'll miss her sweet smile.
This, too, I might not be able to see it when the webcam is on and she might not be happy too! But I can swear, she has the sweetest smile in the world wide world. Even if she don't get Miss Universe if she participates, she will definitely still be able to get the sweetest smile in the Miss Universe. Her smile are able to melt my heart with an immediate effect!

Thirdly, I'll miss her beautiful face.
When I can't see her, I'll keep imagining her beautiful face and that will make me miss it even more!

Fourthly, I'll miss her cuteness.
Whenever she's being cute infront of the webcam, my heart will melt and I'll be so wanting to hug her. She will make me miss her a lot a lot but in anycase, I really love her loads.

Fifth, I'll miss her cuddleness.
I'm not sure if there's this word cuddleness but whoc ares as long as you get what I'm talking about. She likes to cuddle with me when we're outside. For example, she will grab my arms while walking, sleep on my shoulders, chest or thighs, tight hugs and more! She will seem so fragile when she's in my arms that I swear even when the lightning strikes, I'll still want to block it for her and keep her safe from harm.

Lastly, everything else.
I'll really miss everything else. Her emotions, actions. facial expressions, words..anything and everything about her. Even when I see Hello Kitty, I'll miss her
All of it I'll miss her. Even when I got nothing to do/think, I'll eventually think about her. Even when I'm so preoccupied in doing some stuffs, I'll still think about her.
I'll always miss her, sometimes even when she's right in my eyes.

Jian Hui ended his words.